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It's been so long since I posted a writing here.
I thought I would never come back,but here I am.

Because what I am going to write is so priceless and so meaningful to me, I might forget this moment one day because I am that forgetful so I hope this will remain here forever, and I want to make sure it will never be forgotten.

I am now a wife and a mother of one. And today is my birthday. I married a guy who was so particular and sharp on what he is doing. Being that guy, he was so stressed that he couldn't planned a surprise for me. How do I say this? Hmm. It's just so irritating to him if the plan didnt work well. Yeah,this kind of guy,everything planned should be on the exact track.

Recently,we're moving to a new house, he spend a lot of money to build a comfortable house for us. May Allah bless him !  And last month and this month was a bit hard for us,in term of money. If you happened to read this sayang, I'm not whining, instead I was so grateful seeing you working so hard for our little family. Thank you sayang !

So back to the story, today, he surprised me with a rose. And the moment in the car was so touched, I cried. I couldn't expect what is coming yet he surprised me,it works ! I was so happy receiving a rose from him, and seeing me surprisingly happy,he cried. For the first time,in this past two years marrying him,he shed a tear in front of me.

"I'm sorry sayang, I only could afford only a single rose for you,not a bouquet " he said.

It was so heartbreaking seeing your loved one feel bad because he thought that he couldnt be the best for you. We're in the middle of the road for a dinner treat, but I couldn't stop crying.

Later at night,on our way back home, he told me how he planned the whole thing, it was a big success for him as I couldnt smell anything at all.  He thought I would have known and pretending to be surprised the moment he passed the rose in the car. But I'm not ! That was so weird,is it ? Hahahh

If you happened to read this,but I know you wouldn't 😝, I love you sayang. With all my heart. Thank you for being such a good husband and a good daddy for our son. I couldnt ask for more. You're everything, a gift Allah send to me in guiding me to a better path.
May Allah always protect you wherever you are here in dunya and the hereafter. I love you ! ❤

p/s : i'm sorry if this was too cheesy,but here got the less viewer i could find in the internet. I need to express my love somehow ! hahah

so past few days, i had a talk with a friend. that are recently married. and i asked her, is it good to be married?

and the timing maybe were not perfect. she said that she was sad.

she missed her dad.

there were some things that happened and it makes her started to compare on how good her life is when she lived with her dad.

*i'll just passed on what happened. protecting their privacy.*

and the point is, actually it got me thinking, did a guy actually have a deep thought about this? about how big your responsible was when you asked a father for their daughter to be yours? to care and loved nearly as much as the fathers love their daughter throughout their lives?

that was a really huge thing. i know that you will never win competing with a father,but at least,try your best. a girl literally left her family to be with you. make her feel good. build a new 'home' with her and dont make her feel alone. :)





I feel bad for existing. I am sorry.











do you remember the song that was playing the night we met?

no, but I remember every song I have heard since you left.



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